Tuesday, January 18, 2011

When you "stay at home" once your kids are in school

Note:  This post is the long awaited answer to "The Question" that I've been pondering for some time now.  It's not in any way meant to elevate my chosen occupation over any other, but rather my attempt to define what it is for me.  Because sometimes, people want to know.

When you stay at home once your kids are in school, you probably actually won't.  Much.  Because you have BEEN HOME and you are ready to get out a little.

First Day Mosaic
September 2007
You will have a list of things you have been meaning to do once the kids go to school, and you will be eager to start getting it all done.

And you will.  Start.  But it will probably keep growing faster than you can get things done.

Because when your kids go to school people will have your number.  On speed dial.  They will be eager to help you figure out what to do with all the time you have on your hands.  And when they call on you to help, or to play, or to go to lunch, you will be happy to say YES!  Oh, it will feel so good to have the freedom to do that.  It will especially feel good to help, because you haven't been able to do as much as you would like while you have been busy taking care of kids 24/7 for who knows how many years.  And help you will.

You will probably help at school.  You will sign up to help at the class parties, because seriously, who doesn't love a party?  And if you are a picture taker, you will sign up for the yearbook.  After a few years, you will wise up and realize that if you are in charge of the craft at the party, you won't get many pictures taken, and you will let the other parents sign up to help while you take pictures.  When you get home and realize that your own kids are in a whole lot of the pictures, it will make you smile, but you will have to figure out how to make sure they are not in all the ones that make it into the yearbook.

P1550824

P1580343

You will probably help with book fairs and picnics and special friends day and soup labels.

P1590794

You might go on field trips.  And if you are really lucky, your kids will have teachers who welcome parent volunteers on a weekly basis or more, and you will love being a fly on the wall to see what your kids act like at school.  They will probably run over and hug you when they see you arrive, and their teacher will not mind at all.  You will correct papers or prepare materials for projects or help kids with math and reading.

P1600042

The teacher will thank you often, sometimes even with a note or a gift, and you will think that this is the LEAST you could do to help her have more time to teach.

You will be available to help at church with things that happen during the day.  You will make it to those funerals of the elderly members you have been lucky enough to know and love.  You will probably take a casserole or a salad for the meal afterwards.  On a really good day you will make one to take to church and one to leave at home for supper.  Most times you will hope that enough of the church one is leftover to bring home.  Usually it won't be, and since you spent grocery day at a funeral, your family may or may not eat something you found in a box in the freezer for dinner.  You will get to eat lunch with people you know, and you will enjoy remembering.  The family will send you a thank you note, and you will think that you should be sending THEM a thank you note.

When you stay at home once your kids are in school, you will realize you now work the second shift.  You will stop volunteering to be on committees that meet in the evening or on weekends, because that's when your kids are home, and you they will have homework.  And practices and games and church activities.  There will be conversations and fun to have together.  You will think that with all the free time during the day you should get all of your laundry and shopping and cleaning done then, so you can be available to your kids after the bus arrives.  You might slip up and agree to be nominated for church council and accidentally be elected.  It's ok because they usually only meet once a month.  Your family will survive without you.  Dad can do homework too.

Your kids will be gone almost seven hours a day.  SEVEN HOURS!  You will think about meaningful ways to invest those hours in finding your own identity apart from being so and so's mom.  You will join a Bible study or a book club or a Moms in Touch group...there will be plenty of things you could join.  You will consider that an awesome social life, and you will give very little thought to the fact that those things also do some other people some good (especially when you agree to be the leader), because you feel spoiled to be able to do them.

P1580284


You will sign up to teach Sunday School or organize Vacation Bible school because you have plenty of time to work on such things while the kids are in school, but you will be surprised at how the crunch time happens when they are at home.  Every. Time.

IMG_0917


After all, your kids will be home more than you think.  It's not really school five days and home two.  There will be Monday holidays and professional development days and conferences and teacher conventions.  They will no sooner go back to school after Christmas vacation, than you will start filling in your new calendar and realize they will have two full weeks of school out of the next seven.

P1290594


You will wonder why on earth you seem so busy, and why you haven't had time to retrieve the laundry you did three days ago from the dryer.  You will find yourself thinking that this is an unusually busy week in what is normally a very cushy schedule, and next week will calm down considerably.  You will think this pretty much every week.  You will learn to say no, and you will hate that, and still, too often, you will say yes.

You might also think it would be good if you could earn a little money.  You know, to start saving up for college.  You might even have a hobby that would make a good home business if you did it for people.  It would be perfect because you would have complete flexibility.

Milestones Header 655


Milestones collage 659


You could make a website and some business cards.  But you will hardly ever hand them out because you have no idea how you could actually find time to do the work if you had it.  When people ask you what you do, it would never occur to you to say, "I am a small business owner."  You will say you stay home with your kids.  (But not much.)

P1220963

When you stay at home once your kids are in school, you will think about the reasons why you get to do this, and thank God that you don't need to earn a paycheck.  You will thank Him for providing for you, and for a husband who doesn't mind working hard, and who appreciates the value of what you are doing for him and your kids every day.  You will be humbled and in awe that you have such an amazing privilege.  You will ask God to help you use this gift of time in a way that is worthy.  And by his grace, that's just what will happen.  Whether you're aware of it at the time or not.

P1090793


When you stay at home once your kids are in school, Mondays and Septembers will be your paychecks. But the best paycheck of all will be knowing that you will never have to say, "I wish I would have had more time to spend with my kids."

7 comments:

Givinya De Elba said...

You know, I am really really looking forward to this!

Melissa Mae said...

You have spent the time well, capturing it beautifully! Thank you. I am seeing this peeking around the corner..... and am pretty excited about it!

Melissa B. said...

I was always the most exhausted when I was a SAHM. But now that I'm in the classroom, I thank my lucky stars every day for moms like you!

StitchinByTheLake said...

Wow! This was beautifully written and perfectly on target. The good news is that when you're a grandmother you get to do it for a while longer. But not as often or as much so you really do have more "me time." But not much because everyone still calls you to make a casserole, join a Bible study, teach a Sunday School, and best of all babysit a sick grandchild. blessings, marlene

Joy said...

Can you see me....I'm sitting here nodding my head in agreement. I know EXACTLY where you are coming from. This year is my last year of elementary school and I've bitten off a little more than I should chew, but next year there won't be so many request for help. So I'm going for it this year. When you factor in church, community, Bible Study, MITI, etc. and try and think about a little bit of exercise. The days fill up, but wouldn't trade it either. I tell Keith all the time when he comes home from work, he's done. He sits in his chair and he's done. I'm never done. never.
You wrote it so elegantly. All I do is ramble.
♥Joy

Joy said...

Oh Tracy, You need to add a dog to the mix. That just adds to the fun.
Oh and meant to tell you how much I adore the picture collage. It's crazy how much older they look.
♥Joy

Life with Kaishon said...

I love this Tracy. So beautiful. A wonderful reminder for all of us.

All those things you said you do are so cool. I feel sad when I read about them because I never do them.

I am glad you get to! So glad.

I am tweeting this immediately!